Hi Brandon. Your post hits very close to home with me. I understand very much your struggles. You have taken the first and very important step. This is usually the hardest one. And relapse is a part of recovery, fuck anyone who says otherwise. Try to go easy on yourself and keep fighting. You have a long life ahead of you bro, so take it easy and learn to live again for yourself and for your family & friends.
I hope you find strength, focus, and inner peace.