I was a passionate guy, ready to offer love everything it can give me back, I never intended to cross any lady's nerve or leave her crying so much of why she ever loved me. My mindset was ever to love to the best I can, a love free of any atom of naughtiness.
I was only growing up in love and thinking that love life can give me all the much love i ever wanted to give to another someone..... I declined falling inlove for a reason of taking advantage of anyone but to love so passionately and deep that the world can actually applause me.... Bt I was WRONG, I never knew until last four years.....
I met this lady, so beautiful, Charming and so hard to resist her in all aspect, I needed her, I love her already but I can't approach her, no nerve or confidence to even say hello to her but I happened to have a friend who is a playboy. Even though I hate the life of playboys because I thought that the world can offer me what I wish giving her back.... But all was wrong.
During the so much thoughts of how to approach this beautiful lady, I realized that I can't actually get the confidence and courage to do so... I finally pushed everything to my playboy friend to help in reaching to this queen.... Within seconds, she is already smiling with him that I was abit jealous.. Lol but he (my friend) never intend to do anything with her but to push her to me as planned. He assisted and everything seems just fine at the end.
I have her now, I can't help what am feeling, I love every bit of what I'm feeling that very moment, I started dating her which was at first kinda (kind of) complicated based on my lack of confidence around her but I kept going gradually... Loving her to the core and thinking it's all she wanted from me but I was WRONG again... Little did I know she was a player (Lol I don meet mountain Everest oo).
She kept playing with my feelings, my fragile heart and leaving me so much in pain and deep heart broken that I couldn't help myself again during the first 6 months with her. I was shattered, I tried all i could to please her, make her love me back and even understand my mindset and view about love.... But it all seems she is in control of my thoughts and my mind.
I have falling to the hand of a player... It is unbearable, I was dying in pain and broken heart, It was embarrassing, a moment my heart was so much in pain often and every seconds that counts.
She plays me like a kid and make me realized that sometimes loving so deep with your heart doesn't worth it because she showed me that I was WRONG..
The first 8 months with her was terrible, I can't cope anymore.. I finally gave in and let her go (break up)... But I have to change my mindset now, my view about love life and my view about dating.. I did this because of the pain I faced.. It wasn't my fault... But how can I go about it so that I don't fall into the hands of a player again because of love? Hmmm, I have to research, learn, watch videos and listen to audios and understand that I need to understand what women actually want and the principle of playboys.
I got new mentors who are really great pickup artist, seducers, playboys because I wanted to be like them.
I read books on seduction (the mystery method: how to get beautiful women into bed by mystery, the game by Neil Strauss and many more).
At the end, I have control, power and the so much called life of a playboy... Is it my fault friends??? I never think so because it's what life has thought me...
But sometimes I still feel deep within me why the world of love chooses to be so wrong to someone like me.. Why me? I couldn't have change who I am and my mindset about falling in love if not for the kind of life that I faced loving so passionately and deep within my heart.
At the end, I seduce back my ex girlfriend... Played her back and let her go.. Its called karma.. Smiles.
But my question is.... Why is love life so much of a pain to someone or people who are so much real with their view about love? Can't love appreciate and give back to who is cool to her?
I still need answers but not finding any yet... Maybe great minds here in steemit can actually assist with the answer.
Can I still change back to who I was before? No.. I don't think so because I kind of think playboy life style is what the world of love actually needs and want... Smiles.
Thanks for reading... Much love from messinaldo.
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I guess we both feel the same about relationship, know what a girl really wants before going all in
You right brother.. Have learned much