I was eating green mangoes while gazing into the vastness of the horizon. The sky was all kinds of warm colors: red, orange, yellow, purple. It didn't occur to me that this could be the beautiful goodbye I needed as a person who sacrificed and loved deeply despite the circumstances given until I laid down in my bed with emotions fiery as the setting sun I saw from afar.
Is love toxic when it is too much?
I can still remember how I felt content listening to the silences he made when he's too busy to talk to me. The days that seemed years of torture because he was too busy to ask me about my day. The petty arguments about unfulfilled promises, big or small, that turned into weeks of no communication.
Turns out, I loved a busy man. I was never a priority, only an option. It was a mental and emotional wreckage: being swayed by my heart because my mind as an opposite opinion about the man I believed to be mine.
oh if I can only go and give you a hug right now and share some of my positivity.
Thank you for listening and not judging me. <3
Wishing you strength. May Mr. Right come your way to sweep you up and appreciate you. God Bless @olaivart
Thank you for the good wishes, @juniorshelver!
Thank you @olvaiart. My wishes were genuine as I know how stupid and insensitive us guys can be. Only with age does one understand that men just don't get it!!
Age eh? He was a lot older than me. Around 8 years, I believe. Hehe 😊 It's okay now. I think we just have different priorities in life. I understand him better now compared to when we were together. Thanks again!
You're welcome. Genuinely wish you well. Strange how that happens. I got divorced after 40 years of marriage and now we are couteous to one another and we are much happier!
It's funny how relationships work, right? Divorce is actually not legal here in Philippines, along with Vatican City. One of the reasons why I kind of shy away from marriage.
I think when we get way too comfortable with someone, we take them for granted, we get selfish in ways or too, we get rude, because then again, we are TOO comfortable. Thats why I believe in respect, trust, and loyalty when in a relationship no matter how long youve been together. :)