thanks for sharing this. all we can do is spend as much time as possible with family and loved ones and be grateful. life can be fragile and short. i never got to spend enough time with my dad because we come from extreme poverty and everyone were busy doing their own shit. things are better now but i have the same fear that you have. i guess most of us do but we make the same mistakes. i wish you and your family the best, that you'll achieve both of your dreams soon enough. and may that happen to both of us :)