Those memories ,that one sided deep long love,those tears to my first love !Ah when i was in grade 5 till grade 9 .I liked the way he was just nothing more ...with childish brain and childish heart .My tears used to run down when i didn't used to see him for few hours.In Nepal we have festival called tihar[the festival of light] sisters worship brothers and give sweets ,put seven colored tika [Nepali word] in forehead 
and people play music sing traditional as well as every language song and dance and enjoy till night moving from one place to another and collect money ,sel roti[Nepali food],etc...we used to play bhaili and he and i was dance partner my little sister knew i loved and cared for him so she helped me to be dance partner when i was in grade 5 almost i was 10 -11 years old.
this is random picture of children dancing on roads on occasion of tihar .Likewise we also used to dance ,for the first time we danced on song called maya godawari one of the love song .He he i used to be very shy dancing in front of him and he used to tease me...once he teared newspaper and made hole and looked me.I couldn't speak but used to have hundreds of thoughts on mind,those emotions those thoughts not only was on me but it would just circulate in me and stick with me for so long... 24*7 i used to have him on me ...on my mind ,on my books,on my eyes.........my five years first onside love ....its interesting to listen just wait for next post what i used to do how much i cried ,waited,how much i put effort how my childhood was...