Dear apple pie,
Good morning sweetheart, How are you today. I miss you so much and this Sunday morning I want to write for you. I have good and bad news! Which one do you want me to tell first? Okay let’s start with the good one.
The good news is I have one special candidate, He’s perfect to become a dad, he’s not smart like my ideal type but since intelligence inherits by mother, no need to worry. His physical appearance is not bad at all, I did not check about disease history of incompetency but so far he fulfills the criteria!. He loves mommy so much and he treats me like a princess.
This candidate is kinda cute, He has waiting for me for years while I am pretending don’t know his feeling. He is quite but he’s put concern on every details. He looks like he doesn’t care but he’s almost losing his mind because of guys around me. He like to take control but he keeps his words, He is not talk-active person but he proves and acts He’s not perfect sweety, but he will try so hard for everything and he will definitely fight for his family. He is a man in my eyes.
In the contrary of bad news, the problem with this man is he likes to take control, he likes to put me (or us in the future) in golden cage, when all we want is freedom. I know you hun! You get my attitude later. He will be so over-protective towards us. What do you think? Can we deal with that?. The worst things (I am sorry to say that), He wants me to forget my dream, my ambition, my career to create a better condition for you to live in. My dear, sorry your mommy but it breaks my heart a lot. I know you will feel hurt, it doesn’t mean I don’t want you, it doesn’t mean I don’t want you to live well and fill you with love. Maybe I am immature, incapable to be a mother or just obsessive. But darling, this feeling, you wouldn’t understand until you reach my age. When you dreaming something that distracts your sleep, fill you and be the reason you stay late night to pray and study. Of course these Silly dreams is nothing comparing to beautiful creature like you. I shouldn’t be sad, I shouldn’t think twice. I shouldn’t compare it with you! Because its so “not mommy” type, but I am just human who try to act like human. I want you to know I am not an angel sweety.