Great read! Sadly, I can relate...
My last date was netflix n chill & smoking weed, hooking up.
But I still want to connect and keep seeing girls I have a good time with. I'm still seeing the last girl I had a rather immature date with, and she's actually the only girl I'm seeing right now. We're taking it relatively slow, didn't hook up on our first date.
I hope you're okay - it seems like you're hurting. I know how those depressing feelings are. I felt dead inside when I broke up with my then-girlfriend. We didn't share the same values, and she didn't respect me.
yeah it remind me smthing that i cannot forget and forgive , well thanks for your support good to know your views ,