With every interaction we have choice. The idea of free will makes us human. It took me a long time to figure out that no one and no thing can make me FEEL any way in particular. I decide how I feel. Accepting that as truth is something that has changed my life.
I feel similiar like you but I discovered that there is still a mystery that creates our lives
Ah! Agreed. But with everything there is still choice. Some things are out of our control, BUT, our reaction to these events is our choice.
I know but we live here and now :) and our mind reactions are always late - when we evaluate or analyze we do not live :)
we lose our lives