What a wonderful comment, thank you so much for your words!
Actually I never sat on the beach in the beginning. That is even weird. But that means that I didn't start because I wanted to imitate someone, but to find my own way. Later I consciously decided on sitting there and watching since you learn a lot from others by simply studying their moves (same happens watching surf videos). You internalize how they move their arms, how they turn around, where their head looks at, etc.
We tend to overthink a lot in our lives, basically everything. Most of the problems and fear is only in our heads. We anticipate something that might happen in the future and complicate our lives but then it probably never happens. I have stopped to worry about anything that could have a negative influence on my life and rather focus on the things that have a positive influence on me RIGHT HERE AND NOW π
Again, thanks for your valuable thoughts, I enjoyed reading them a lot!