Maybe there is a point to me doing even this though
My vagueness can create confusion, my apologies. Some suspect everything has already happened, all possibilities, consciousness being the vehicle for perceiving/witnessing these events that have already occurred all at once. That oversimplifies it, but should clarify I wasn't questioning your sanity. More an offering of the possibility that perhaps there isn't failure if all roads must/do exist.
The point to doing it is where you will find your door. Thank you for an interesting read. The essence captured something I haven't dwelled upon across in years.