I completely understand your frustrations, it's really irritating when we're in a school system where "learning" gets in the way of actual learning. Steps on our passion, does not meet our expectations and lift our own ambitions. Even working, to earn a living gets in the way of our own self development. It's pretty defeating.
It may be gloomy, frustration bottles up. Channel it and get amazing latte there's work to be done. There's still ways to make a difference and lift your skill.
I recommend checking out this Charity https://giveth.io
You can get involved in the community, peer review their code, contribute and earn crypto in the process. Plus it can add to your skill and resume.
Their GitHub is https://github.com/Giveth
Yes it is opensource, yes it's crypto currency but it'll be rewarding, good hunting @redsonja
I will definitely check that out!! I'm trying to reserve more time to learn new things.