I had no idea that you got anxiety so badly. It's a good idea that sometimes, it's just time to relax and stop fighting it... Wasted energy is energy that isn't there when you need it most.
By the way, I think you have misapplied the bengy imperial to logical conversion. It is a mathematical function that is a one way function, applied on a logical function it spits out the relevant and correct gobbledygook faceroll scaling. Applied in the reverse direction it is likely to result in nonsense that is a mathematical artifact rather than a reflection of the physical world. Coomon rookie mistake, but pros have been also ben known to forget this!