Wuaoo I hug you @xlety even though I don't know who you are but I identify myself by the taste towards this one , in my case it's just curiosity and knowing what terrifies you so much but with your answer you already answered me.
Feeling this way is too difficult, it is scary and terrifying, I hope that what you feel is transformed into peace, love and light.
I loved the sincerity of your participation.
P.S; I don't know if what you wrote is fiction but it's good.
Thank you for your comment! Unfortunately, I do have anxiety and it really resonates with me. I think I ended up venting a bit in this text
🥹☺️😉🤗