Thats some intense competitive spirit 😢 it's astonishing how deep competition is engrained in our society. Class ranking and athletic contests starting from very young ages. Even things such as valentines day acknowledged in elementary schools, with some students receiving tons of gifts while others go home empty handed.
Whether its popularity, smarts, athleticism, wealth, beauty-- bigger and better is the goal of many.
I never intended to hurt others in my competition for better grades or popularity, but I did lose my sense of self through squashing my individuality and molding myself to meet standards.
I overworked myself and disregarded my health in order to make grades. I shamed myself and my body for not being good enough when i should have recognized all along that we are all divine creatures who really just need supportive loving communities to help us shine.
I believe if we had more supportive communities deeply rooted in foundational consciousness and mutual understanding we might also see much less occurrence of gun violence in our world.