Hi Friends!
So, my posting may be delayed a little, and I'm super sad because I was working on a great new video to release. Yesterday while I was putting dishes away, my legs buckled and I was unable to really get back up. My husband helped me into a chair and I went to the ER. Nearly 24 hours later, and I still can't walk.
I was diagnosed with MS 5 years ago, but this is my first serious relapse. I literally went from running every other day, to extreme fatigue, to not being able to lift, to falling and then not being able to walk, all in less than 3 weeks.
(I'm posting a pic of myself from the gym to remind me that I can and will go back to that eventually.)
It is a flurry of people in and out of my room. Neurologists, physical therapists. As I was wheeled down the hallway of the neurological floor I'm on, most of the rooms were open and most of the patients were in their 60s or 70s. I knew that complications like this might one day be an inevitability, but it wasn't really something I was ready to face yet. Not at 30.
(My cool new ride yo! Once I am able to start walking again!)
I would be lying if I said I wasn't terrified. I spent 2 hours in a little MRI tube and was told I have new lesions on my brain, neck and spine, and that I have potentially permanent nerve damage in my right eye.
(I think I could pull this look off, don't you?)
I have had two different physical therapists see me and they think that with a lot of work and effort, I should be able to at least get back to using a walker or cane. This is a far cry of course from where I was at just a couple of weeks ago in running and pumping iron, but I will take what I can get at this point!
Anyway, when I get back to the land of the walking, I really want to show you guys my latest project! It's kind of silly and fun, but I put a lot of work into it!
I'm accepting good vibes btw. I will need a lot of them in the upcoming days. Steem on!
Really to hear about that, @bethwheatcraft! Get well soon! <3
Thanks so much! You're so sweet! I'm starting to feel better actually, and I am finally up with my walker! Baby Steps!
ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL THE GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD VIBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!
I'm so sorry so much craziness happened so quickly... that is nuts! The little I read about it, I didn't realise the situation could deteriorate so quickly... that is super frightening!
Of course you'll totally be able to rock the super hot pirate look!
I am completely blown away by this post... thank you so much for sharing with us all, I hope you'll be back on your feet in no time... but if it is a grind to get back up and walking then I'm very confident you've got the grit and determination to make it happen!
I will absolutely try to post as much vicarious-living for you! We'll motivate each other to smash our obstacles (yours are admittedly a trillion percent harder, but you can do it!).
Hope you don't mind that I'll resteem this... I just want to make sure all our new buds get a chance to good vibe up too.
You are sweet! Thanks so much! I am definitely not a quitter. I just am kind of out of my element here. I like to have some semblance of control, and it is unnerving having to rely on others for everything. I suppose it is a test for me. Sometimes I just have to let go and let be. If I can't walk with assistance tomorrow I am being sent to an inpatient rehab, and that's more my jive. People expecting something of me and working hard. I can't do this hospital thing, it's killing me!! Thanks for the vibes! :)
Of course... this sounds super new and scary... you've gone from gym junkie to unable to walk so quickly... and the road to recovery is going to be hard... and hospitals are just super unnerving. It's a huge test, maybe the biggest of your life, but I'm pretty sure you'll keep on keeping on. Moms of 3(?) are usually the toughest around.
Oh no! I'm so sorry :( I know a few people that have that as well... Best wishes on your recovery :)
Thanks so much! Yeah I am actually finding that it is more common than I would have thought. I was diagnosed pretty young, but in some ways that's better as I got an early jumpstart on taking care of myself. There is nothing quite as chilling as not being able to walk though. It really has me spooked about the disease that I thought I could control. Very humbling, that's for sure.
I hear you. I can't imagine what it must be like. But keep fighting and good luck!
Omg, So sorry to hear that! Wishing you good vibes!!
Thanks so much! I am feeling the good vibes today! Hopefully today is the day I stand again! I totally stalked your page and your posts are so awesome! Followed! Thanks for thinking of me!
awww thank you so much! Glad you are enjoying my page :D and get some rest and more good vibes going your way! <3
Sorry to hear about your relapse. That's hard. I've dealt with some major health issues as well and know the feeling of feeling blessed with health afterwards. I'll be praying for you and sending you good vibes
So sweet! I really appreciate it! I think prayers and good thoughts and vibes make a serious difference, call me crazy! Steemit has also been so nice to me. You guys are so great! :)
I am so sorry to hear you are going through this!! But you are a warrior and can get through anything!!
Sending you so many good vibes!!
Thanks so much for the vibes! I am seriously putting in 150% to get my butt out of here. I am going crazy not being able to move around!!! I will do whatever I have to to get back to normal again! Although at least I have had more time to get to know people and make new friends! Always an upside I suppose!
Seeing the positive in any situation is key! You just saying that shows so much about you as a person...shows how amazing you are! Just have faith and keep doing everything that you're doing and before you know it you'll be out of there in no time! You've got this!! :)
Thanks! I will try to take these words to heart! This is definitely one of the most difficult things I have faced. Especially knowing that if I can't turn things around, they could become permanent things...so no stress right? :/
@bethwheatcraft I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I hope you find recovery in the near future. Keep fighting and laughing no matter what, love. <3
Thanks so much for thinking of me! I spent a good deal of today bawling my eyes out, so I'm def not always super strong. Things aren't going as well as I'd hoped and I definitely like to have more control than this. This is definitely testing me in a lot of ways. I have just felt so sad feeling so helpless and relying on others. But tomorrow is a new day and maybe things will have improved. Thanks again for the comment! You're sweet!
Life's a Bitch.
But you get up and move on.
Cherish everyday like it's your last and you'll have a much more rewarding life than most.
MS has touched my life and I wish you many more good days than bad.
I really hope that you are getting along a little better now. You are so positive that I am not sure if my good vibes will even make a difference but I hope they do.
On another note, you may want to check out @ocd and see if you can get some more support for your posts :)
I'll check that out! Thanks! All Vibes Matter! ;)