Hi mate, thankyou for reading my blog - it was a real relief to get these dark thoughts out of my soul and into the internet where likeminded and clever people can deconstruct and rationalise with me. Such a relief because a post like that would've had me torn apart on facebook, but thats why I took the risk and posted it. I needed to say something and expel the feelings of dismay; better out than in :)
Over the last few days, I took some time off to reflect and it really helped my mental health, I feel like the cloud has lifted and somewhat back to my old self, with some creativity. We all go through dark spells and my way of dealing with things is to be real, and write things down. Often rationalising things with yourself within prose can really sort perspectives out!
Thankyou, thankyou all for your wonderful support.
Take care mate.
No problem James - I really felt the passion in what you wrote. I could have easily written a lot more in my reply, but then I thought you had said all that needed to be said and I didn't want to side track it.
Really glad you are feeling a bit better - sometimes we need to go through some less great experiences to be able to come out the other side even stronger/more creative...