As the saying goes- The night is always darkest just before the dawn.
In case I forget to encourage- get that checked out by someone who is competent and curious enough to find the source. I need a push sometimes so this one is yours. Just do it. And if it isn´t obvious- if you MUST go up and down stairs (apparentl so) minimize that impact.
No jarring or heel walking. Simple things like that go a long way sometimes.
So yea, sounds like you are resourceful and be careful bc the only kratom ¨deaths¨ that are legitimate are from kratom ¨products¨. Other words, mixed with something that is not on the label- The one that started a lot of problems was ¨Krypton¨ sold online in Norway. Was mixed with the very thing you said you wanted to avoid. 10 ppl died over the course of a year or two. Iḿ sure the worst is over but do take care & start too low. No effect is better than badness. And extracts? huh- sure, if you want tolerance problems- right away. The kind of thing you wanted to avoid. I see stupid people in forums all the time complaining about problems that I have not had bc I stuck to the good advice I was given by experienced folk. (maybe 1st time in my life I did something right)
So with that out of the way....Nothing is perfect but it is a real gem. Yes, after about a week of pain dosing (hevier than mood dosing), and weening off, I came to a stunning realization.
I mean, sure I felt better having some of my life back, but my depression- the constant companion was no where to be found. Wh Wha Whaaat?!
And depression was a major driver of repetitive behavior that indirectly contributed to the injury flare up. Call it toxic build up.
Ive been down medication alley for depression too and there is no comparison, considering the drawbacks I had to put up with. They interfered with my life and led to long term damage between me and my family when I did not have them with me on a holiday visit (anti depressant withdrawal is no joke).
Given a touch of motivation, some trial and error, and good sense, this plant will teach you the way. Excessive use? It will start taking back the gifts if you become careless- brilliant!- and effective parenting, lol.
For mood disorders- less is more. If I had known that when I first tried, I would not have given up the first time. Since that 1st run of pain dosing, I have not needed to go back. I have stayed with low dosing to control a handful of other problems that had only worsened over the last two decades. This is Grace.
So if I sound like someone who found the Holy Grail, that´s why.