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After she answered by informing me that she has had more deaths in her family than I have, she brushed it aside as if it was nothing. It's strange how narcissists compete on everything, including death. Worst of all, my brother had just died a few days before she stated this to my face, she just don't care I always knew she doesn't care about me or respect me in anyway I don't know why I bother asking her for emotional help I should know better.
Can you imagine my rage and how devastated she has made me feel by kicking me when I'm down? Then she asked for money, which I declined because I didn't have any. Do you realize that I'm jobless because of covid? I told her I didn't want to marry you because I'd never agree to take care of you, and I even told your mother I didn't have any money, but she decided to marry us despite my objections.
Both times I disagreed with the illegal marriage and the MUIS marriage because I felt something was wrong when I got out of the car and knew I wasn't supposed to marry you. I told you I didn't want this and you looked at me and ignored me and walk away both times. I just froze for awhile because I knew this marriage will be the death of me or I go crazy if I stay with this woman. I went up to the building because I was so depressed and I don't know why I went up and started to put a fake smile.
While I cried for help inside, I didn't want to be with this lady; I knew I would die if I stayed with her, but I had lost hope; I had lost myself; I just wanted this to end; I was hoping I would die along the road.
The entire ceremony was torturous for me; I was disgusted with myself and humiliated to be a part of this family; I wanted to grab a knife and slit my face open because I couldn't bear the shame any longer. That's why we fought the entire time I was with her because she wanted me to publish our images on the internet. I never allow anyone to post my pictures on the internet, including myself, since I don't like attention, and narcissists thrive on it. Narcissist thrive on good attention and bad attention That's why you'll always see them fighting with someone, even over minor issues. I only fight when people attack me; she doesn't; she fought with all of her friends, and now she's lost me, so she contacts all of her old friends and blames it on me. The highest level of manipulation.
To be continued... the liar and a thief continue to lie using religion and fabrication of truth no matter what narcissist must win that is their purpose in life...
She knows I support her and her family in a variety of ways, so ever since I left, she has tried her hardest to delete any evidence of my good deeds, such as when she told my mother that she only trusts me and that I have taken excellent care of her. She also said I was brilliant since I fixed so many items in her mother's house that were broken, and I even cleaned the house for nearly 6 months because it was filthy, dusty, and had dead things on the floor, among other things.
If you're ever in a relationship with a narcissist, you have no choice but to be as pitiful as them, since they keep track of your darkest times, using phone recordings, hacking through your phone while you sleep and create drama, screenshots, call recording etc. I wasted three years of my life helping and healing her while I destroy myself in the process. Thankfully, I heal quickly.
That's all for today, stay away from narcissists if you don't want your money and belongings stolen, and no one will believe you until it's too late. Learn from my mistakes and remain safe.