1/31/24 — Hive

Where would I be without Hive? I swear I'd be cooked without this Blockchain. Not even about the money whatsoever. Ugh.

I'm at a point where I'm beyond stressed and I'm just tired man. Just tired. I feel mostly down but, I'm so used to feeling down that, it's just stale. I'm just blank. That could sound sad, and it feels a little sad. But I'm just trucking along. Literally writing like this helps. I'm glad I am doing so. Why not?

I was supposed to be a little more productive today, but got sent down a SERIOUS rabbit hole of YouTube debates. So interesting. I think I'd be a good debater with some practice. I grew up arguing for crying out loud. Not saying a healthy debate is an argument exactly but, I don't really think there too dissimilar. People talk about fallacies, subjective, objective this and that. It seems like I'd have to study up on some of that but, fundamentally I think I'd be pretty good at it.

The debates ranged from all sorts of topics and man, its wild. I know that people like to say 'get off the Internet' or imply that the Internet makes these problems bigger than they seem. But i don't know man. I guess there's truth to that but, totally ignoring the world around you feels equally bad. Something feels wrong and lazy about being totally cut off, ignorant or complacent etc. I guess moderation is key. But yeah, the thought of ignoring everything just to simply chill, feels wrong. Next thing you know, society could look like something you don't agree with.

Progress progress progress. Who defines progress exactly? That's something I think people don't consider enough. People can confuse 'new' or 'different' with progress and I'm not sure that just because something feels new or different that it can be considered progress all the time. Like, what is the end goal? What are we hurdling towards?

But yeah. I can't believe we are already about 1/12 through 2025.

Bills, goals, frustration, laziness, working too much. Ugh. I'm just feeling blah but I don't have time to feel blah all the time.

The present is a present. I gotta earn something. We all get what we deserve in this life and well, I gotta do something to get a life I feel I deserve.

Meh. Weird rant. But all my rants are weird.

Hive on folks.