11/18/24

in #neoxian2 days ago

Life has been stressful as ever but I don't know lately I feel a bit stronger and a bit more disciplined. I am hopefully maturing. I still have really bad days sometimes but I just have no time to just remain there anymore for too long.

I have been playing chess still and I am definitely getting better. My rating has only gone up mildly but it has gone up. I also am having more success against 1,000 ELO bots. Look I am not amazing but I've only been doing it a month. But good score or not, the mental challenge and just pure fun of the game is super satisfying. There's so many possibilities for pieces to move and so many strategies to use. I could probably spend a lifetime learning all the nuances of this game. It's great for keeping my brain distracted too. Loving it.

I have a nice base of Christmas presents collected for my son. I still have a bit of work to do but I am ok with where I am at currently. It's his last single digit Christmas and it's just intensely bittersweet. I want to do better in life just to show him how beautiful life can be and to show him how to live well in general. Hive on folks.