First, I'll say am super glad you pulled out as at the time you did iconic Ray. Kudos to the ones who helped in your recovery journey too.
It's really difficult loosing a loved one especially those that plays parental roles that too at a tender age..... one can only imagine the pain you had to endure. 😧 To a hero like John, may his soul continue to find peace with his creator.
It's been a hard old journey for sure!