We all certainly go through this. I was going to through it yesterday as well and ended up getting really mad about the dMania situation. I spent a bunch of time on an original meme but I didn't get an upvote from dMania yet and every time I go there the mass majority of high payout post are just gifs or pictures taken directly off another meme site. I also became mad because I have delegated power to dMania and so has Steemit INC and oftentimes when I look at their voting power it is at 99% or higher. It is like they don't use the delegated power and when they do it is just a copied meme. Honestly I don't get it but at the same time I don't know what they are going through on a daily basis or everything they are trying to do.
I go through it all the time when I create stuff and I think a lot of us go through thinking ......... If I could only earn X amount each day..... and that keeps changing. Like in my mind if I could earn $300 each day then I would be set....... etc........ etc.
But like you I'm a lose cannon over here in a lot of people's eyes. I speak out about too much stuff. Talk about picking up chicks. Tell people that I think the crypto markets are going to go lower.................. they don't want to hear that shit. Oftentimes they just want to see cookie cutter "safe" content that won't piss people off.
But yeah man. I feel what you are saying. Mentally I bounce around like a ping pong ball about the situation on here and my payouts. I keep telling myself to stop it and not spend so much time on here......etc
Hm... sorry to shill, and I'm sure you might run across it on your own in due time, but dmania's rival decentmemes.com is backed by netuoso and acidyo and emphasizes original memes and manual curation. They have future plans for a decentmemes curation team (I think, I could be misunderstanding their original pitch), and might be looking for delegation power in the future. Just something to think about, they haven't rolled everything out yet. I appreciate original, funny memes, and Star Trek and accidentally came across your comment so I just thought I'd give you a heads up for when they do have things set up.
And I'm definitely with you on the strangeness that is steemit when it comes to pointing out obvious things like the price of steem and SBD have been literally falling for months, it's like they want to think that it can sustain a price spike that's been coming from one exchange for forever.