I'm so sorry to hear that happened. It's strange to think about that if, indeed, this was an accident this man woke up that morning assuming that day come and go like all the other ones that came before it. You are so right about having to live each day as it's your last. The pandemic really drove that point home for me. I put far fewer things off now than I used to and I make very sure that people close to me know how I feel about them.
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Something that drives me crazy about myself, is that I should have already learned this lesson. In fact I did after each death I've experienced,.and for awhile each time I was very clear on the temporal nature of this place. But somehow, while I'm still aware of it, the urgency, the poignancy fades. Covid was a reminder, though I didn't lose anyone to the virus itself. Still the potential looming certainly brought it back. It's not that I forget, I have a very long memory, it's just the emotional connection to the thoughts fade and I get caught up in the mundane. Though to be fair to myself the experiences have had a lasting impact, a growth and maturity. And maybe we're just not meant to be constantly evolved. Perhaps it takes away from the magic of each experience if we're always sitting with past ones.
I would try not to be too hard on yourself, I think this kind of amnesia happens to us all. There's so much noise in the world today it's sometimes difficult to stay focused and remember everything we've learned all the time. We must constantly reorient ourselves and even then we don't always remember to even do that (at least I don't). Good point about too much attachment to the past forcing us out of "the flow" of mindfulness and the present moment.