Had another incredible adventure. <3
Things are getting even more "real" in some ways.
I stumbled onto an area pretty far out where there were bunch of bones all over the ground and a "fresh" kill, a leg, a skull and then when I watched the footage I saw the rest of the body of what I think is a deer, but maybe an elk??? It has huge antlers... And, I think it was most likely and almost certainly a mountain lion that killed it...
But, some of the bones were up in a place where it seemed strange, it made me think that maybe a human could have been doing animal sacrifice there because of that, but in all reality it was probably just a mountain lion...
Either way I got pretty freaked out and creeped out at that point and got out of there much quicker than I originally planned.
There was a bunch of other stuff that happened that was amazing, though I'll save it for the YouTube series which I more and more think people are going to really enjoy!
Assuming I live long enough to share it! Lol...
It's definitely becoming more and more entertaining and I'm getting out there further and facing fears and doing some really cool things... It took a lot of courage and bravery to do what I did yesterday and I'm proud of myself.
I also improved my OCD a bit more I think and realized one of the main things I need to work on.
On the walk back I had a poetic thought that went something like... "One of the best things you can do is not feed the demons".
What I meant by "demons" is to not feed the negative thoughts.
The more we focus on negative thoughts the more we give them life and the more they grow.
Likewise the more we focus on being grateful and happy and positive things the more that grows.
And, I'm not saying to ignore the negative thoughts, they are there for a reason it's good to try to understand them and process them, but... Then let them go. Just don't give them the attention you used to.
Negative thoughts persist because we feed them with our focus instead of focusing on other things.
Especially when it comes to people with OCD we tend to loop these things over and over and over until it becomes maddening... And, people who are depressed or who have other mental issues I think deal with similar sorts of things.
Something happened in the past, and trauma infected the mind... Though, I do believe it is possible to heal and I'm healing so much... I couldn't have done all this adventure stuff if I didn't heal this much. And, now more than ever I really do believe that I will probably heal my OCD... Maybe even with a year or two or less.
One other thing... My body felt the best afterwards... I wasn't limping home... A lil pain in the knee, but it wasn't bad and I brought a bunch of snacks and food with me so I wasn't walking home hungry either! It felt great!
It feels like I'm really figuring this out and getting stronger and I have a feeling there's going to be some more epic adventures in the future! And... Just good times and memories as I heal and allow myself to live this life more. Tons of love always. Bye for now. <3
