wow thank God you are feeling better now. I just joined steemit and have been observing your blog some minutes back. Its a great thing surving even as a dialysis patient.
Sometimes I envy normal people especially when I see them have a good time with working joints, appetite, and all pain free and laughing because i now cannot do the things that I was doing before and it all makes me bedridden and disabled from doing much in my life.
You dont need to envy them. Everyone lacks something good too. Keep living