I think a lot of what you're talking about is finding work that isn't alienating.
I had the same thing as you with Steemit working as a teacher, although probably not as extreme or immediate.
I used to teach A-level (16-19) sociology in a college, and the subject was great, the kids were great, the other staff were great, but eventually the rest of the system just got too much - I didn't feel like I had meaningful control over too many aspects of my work, and it became alienating.
I quit, and I now teach the same subject online and sell resources - same product essentially, but I'm in control, I can experiment with different things, I can be 'cheekier' in what i produce.
And it's not a drag, I don't feel like working.
I feel like I've got another evolution to go through - I'm intending to move to an eco-village (all being co-ordinated through Steem btw) within the next year and quite literally work for free helping to build it, work for me needs to be more diverse and hands-on going forwards.
I've been planning this for a while now, but this Tron fiasco has made me realise that a move towards living off the land with less reliance on either fiat or crypto is essential for boosting resilience!
Glad your back, and I'm not a fan of toxing either!
Anyway, bit a long reply there soz.