I understood that my passion was calling out to me when I started to have very strong emotions, such as sadness or happiness. I could sing and create a song in a matter of minutes. Interestingly, when I sung a melody and recorded it, I would need to go back and learn it. I would always asked my self this question; if I am the writer/creator of the song shouldn't I be the one to remember it? Isn't it strange? I am sure many writers have had theses experience and I came to the conclusion that I am not me and I am not a writer or a singer, I am only a consciousness expressing my self in a different form within this reality.
I began writing music and singing at a very young age, especially when experiencing pain, anger, hurt and many other strong emotions. I would write them down and sing it when no body was around me, because I was scared of any judgement. When I was alone, I could express my emotions openly with no fear. Out of nowhere, I could hear melodies in my head of music that I have never heard before. I began recording these and was surprised to how I could come up with these in my head. As I kept on doing this more and more, I understood that this is a part of me and I began to own it and live it. This was the process of me understanding my higher self and understanding my passion.
At some point in my life, I wanted to give up music because of the doubt that was built up in my mind due to our society. This made me believe that music was not for me, because I thought I would have to look and dress a certain way and do certain things in order to be validated. I began feeling very upset and I wanted to stop writing and singing all together. I also began feeling very depressed and angry, but I didn't know why I was feeling this way and I didn’t know that music had such a big effect on me. During the 2 year period of me trying to give up on music, I sub-consciously kept on writing songs and singing with out realizing, even though I wanted to give up on music, it wasn't leaving me alone and it was with me at all times.
Society has made it very difficult for artists to pursue their passion, as music these days is very glamorized and musicians feel like in order to live a life following there passion and expressing their emotion, they have to conform to societies expectations. Well that is completely untrue, in order to express our emotions we don't have to be accepted by anybody apart from thy self. Anything can be part of expression; crying, laughing and singing are all emotional forms of expression. Do we need validation from our society to express ourselves? We need to be able to express our selves fully regardless of what others say.
It is sad to know that somebody in a law suit can tell us that our form of expression is not acceptable, therefore we can’t express ourselves in the way that we feel inclined to. In our society, they make us believe that in order to follow our passion we have to follow certain rules; certain looks; certain behavior and completely lose ourselves. Music is not about how you look or how you dress or anything external, it is all about expressing our souls.
I knew that money and fame was not for me, as I had many opportunities to follow money, but instead I chose to follow my true passion, which is expressing my highest self and not being apart of an industry where I have no freedom of expression and will ultimately lead me to depression and extreme unhappiness. As when, if I choose money, I am no longer following my passion and I am no longer aligned with my true purpose.
Music make me feel high, when I hear music it changes my mood instantly, music is my pain relief and that's how I know music is my passion. Do you know what is your passion?
By LyricaLinus
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