Today I am here to make a confession. You are my jury and you will give the verdict. Yes, I killed the person whom I hated the most. Yes, it was a cold-blooded murder, I committed the unthinkable act but he left no other options for me. If I had not killed him then it would be impossible for me to retain my own identity from his clutches.
One fine morning when I woke up, I found him sitting opposite to me and staring at me with his bloodshot eyes. I faced the stark reality of his presence in my life and I shivered with fear. Yes, I was running from him for how long I don’t remember but more I tried to run away from him the more he swayed control over me. I have no respite from him and I hated him from the core of my heart. He traumatized me and was on verge of killing my true self. He always tried to dictate my life. Whenever I tried to rebel against him he ruthlessly trampled me under his feet. He ruled over me.
For him, I was like a puppet that danced to his whims and fancies. He occupied my inner space and slowly and steadily he made in road towards me, I always thought him as insignificant part but my not acknowledgement of his presence in my life proved disastrous for me. He confronted me in his monstrous proportions and I was unable to put a brave front against him. He imprisoned me in his old ideas and his set of obsolete principles. He always presented a false picture of mine; I hated his gloominess and perversity.
He started dictating me in every walk of life. He tried to make me what I was not, I battled with him but was vanquished.I lost the hope, and I knew I am going to die an inglorious death. I recollected how I first met him. He came with a pleasant smile on his face but I was unable to see his evil intentions. Yes, he was spreading like cancer and I have to confront him. At that morning he sat opposite to me I questioned him about my existence and my purpose of life for which I descended on this earth, he was speechless. He didn’t utter a word, just stared at me with cruel blank eyes.
I wanted to be untamed, swift and proud, I wanted to smell the fragrance of freedom and at that moment I gathered my energy and thundered “Enough is enough. I want to be free from You”. My voice echoed and my confident voice showed chinks in his armour. I saw the silver lining on the horizon, he was trembling and shaking. I got hold of a flower vase at my bed side with dried daffodils in it and I threw it with my full intensity in his direction. It made a deafening sound and soon the room splashed with shreds of the mirror. The room showered in bright sunlight. I massacred my fears and inhibitions.
I killed my pessimistic self. Finally, I unchained myself.
In pure ecstasy, I came out of my bed and immersed myself in the heavenly benediction of sun rays beaming through the windows.
I am ready for your judgement for what I did but it was a brand new day for me, a beginning.
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Ahhh, @kumarmanish9, if only we could all kill our pessimistic selves... What a future we might have?
An up vote for your clever post and a follow, to boot! Feel free to follow me back.
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thanks for your kind words. Quite an encouragement to keep writing :)
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