Well put. It can almost seem counterproductive trying to meditate sometimes when it just stirs up anxiety.
I heard a good tool I like to focus on. I can count it as a win, if I'm trying to meditate and my mind is all over the place for most of the time and I come back just at the end to meditate with a clear mind. It isn't measured by how long I'm able to meditate correctly, it is the coming back that is the training. As long as I make my mind come back to the meditation at some point, I try to be less anxious about the wandering I've done.