My entire adult life has been a perpetual cluster fuck, I've been fucked by a bank, an insurance company and government. So I never became immersed in the illusion of control or ever got close to being the monkey with the biggest pile of shiny trinkets.
1 acid trip isn't gonna do it, scoff a whole row and become the matrix or take some DMT and bypass it all together.
Haha not sure whether to envy or pity you bro... DMT will also do it, although I wouldn't fucking reccomend that for beginners ;p