You might have misunderstood me. One does not choose to be in the Dark Night. You arrive there after experiencing a major disillusion about yourself and the world. If you don't understand it and would not want to experience it, good for you! Just keep going...
I'm sorry, I must sound very confusing. It is not an easy topic to talk about. I just hope that if it happens to you one day, you will remember to type "dark night of the soul" in google and let someone more articulate explain it : )