Hey @drewo, sorry to hear you're feeling down. However, you should be aware that when sorrow comes, it is carving space in your being so it can contain more joy (Paraphrased from the verse Joy and Sorrow from The Prophet, a collection of verses from Kahlil Gibran. Highly recommended - you can find it freely by searching DuckDuckGo (i highly recommend not using google as doing so supports the violence, including mass-murder that they perpetrate through censorship).
Also. A prescription from me (i'm not a doctor so you can trust me :-) for your depressed state, guaranteed to uplift you.
- Begin the Presence Process (by Michael Brown). Send me your Telegram or email in Bee Chat and i'll send it to you.
- Do some fasting. Water or Juice fasting (even urine therapy if you can).
Hope this helps.
Sat Nam
Atma