Hey thanks for reading and I am glad you liked it!
I am happy to share a little bit about the symbolism I used and the intended meanings. Escaping The prison of fear
The lines on my shirt sybolise that I am a prisoner (like a classic prison uniform)
The lines in the backgroun represent my prison
I use the black string to represent negative emotions in this case fear and anxiety
Often I will include stripes and lines to represent tension and anxiety
In my past when I was in a violent relationship I was not allowed to do anything; I wasn't allowed to have friends, go out (unless accompanied or to buy him alcohol, drugs or food). I was not permitted use the toilet (without permission), listen to any music he didn't like ( I could make the list of my restrictions in this situation go for pages). So I was very much literally a prisoner. It was also that my thoughts if out spoken were always put down, challenges or dismantled. So I was a prisoner in my mind. Now away from this situation I struggle with memories, battle constantly with my confidence and spend a lot of time feeling incredibly anxious and fearful. So Pulling the black string from my mouth is intended to be a symbol of that struggle. I am trying to battle these negative emotions and draw them out of my mind.
Calling my Brain
The phone represents my childhood and my past in general
The suitcase symbolises my brain
Often when I use a white backdrop it's intended to symbolise something about my head space
This one is a bit tricky to explain but Ill try. It shows that I struggle to hold everything together but the person on the other side of the phone thinks I am fine (remember the person on the other end of the phone is my brain). My brain is emptying its contents on the ground and has become empty, I struggle to remember things short term, but I remember the torment of my past which is my bagage. Over all its meant to show that I am constantly carrying this useless baggage everywhere I go and show how I struggle to hold it all together in my mind. Im in a vicious cycle of telling my brain everything is ok when its not forgetting that my brain knows its not because it is me. (like I said this ones a bit tricky to explain)
Am I ready to face another day?
The dark backdrop and the bright sunlight creating a spotlight effect represent a stage
The stage is the stage of life and I am the actor.
I wake up I have a shower, I look at the sun beaming in so gladly and despite the beauty of the day I think I don't know if I can face another day. My expression is scornful. It is almost as though I am angry that the day is so beautiful, how dare the day be so beautiful when I am so scared and feel so pitiful and blue. I am looking at the viewer trying to show how I really feel at that moment I am telling them a story that is also true to them, that is a very human story that perhaps sometimes all we would all like to retreat to the back of the stage and into the darkness.
I hope these explanations were interesting to you and you enjoyed reading them. It is nice to have interest in my articles. I am sorry it took a while for the reply but I wanted to take the time to answer thoughtfully and respectfully. peace and love
Hey thanks for reading and I am glad you liked it!
I am happy to share a little bit about the symbolism I used and the intended meanings.
Escaping The prison of fear
In my past when I was in a violent relationship I was not allowed to do anything; I wasn't allowed to have friends, go out (unless accompanied or to buy him alcohol, drugs or food). I was not permitted use the toilet (without permission), listen to any music he didn't like ( I could make the list of my restrictions in this situation go for pages). So I was very much literally a prisoner. It was also that my thoughts if out spoken were always put down, challenges or dismantled. So I was a prisoner in my mind. Now away from this situation I struggle with memories, battle constantly with my confidence and spend a lot of time feeling incredibly anxious and fearful. So Pulling the black string from my mouth is intended to be a symbol of that struggle. I am trying to battle these negative emotions and draw them out of my mind.
Calling my Brain
This one is a bit tricky to explain but Ill try. It shows that I struggle to hold everything together but the person on the other side of the phone thinks I am fine (remember the person on the other end of the phone is my brain). My brain is emptying its contents on the ground and has become empty, I struggle to remember things short term, but I remember the torment of my past which is my bagage. Over all its meant to show that I am constantly carrying this useless baggage everywhere I go and show how I struggle to hold it all together in my mind. Im in a vicious cycle of telling my brain everything is ok when its not forgetting that my brain knows its not because it is me. (like I said this ones a bit tricky to explain)
Am I ready to face another day?
The stage is the stage of life and I am the actor.
I wake up I have a shower, I look at the sun beaming in so gladly and despite the beauty of the day I think I don't know if I can face another day. My expression is scornful. It is almost as though I am angry that the day is so beautiful, how dare the day be so beautiful when I am so scared and feel so pitiful and blue. I am looking at the viewer trying to show how I really feel at that moment I am telling them a story that is also true to them, that is a very human story that perhaps sometimes all we would all like to retreat to the back of the stage and into the darkness.
I hope these explanations were interesting to you and you enjoyed reading them. It is nice to have interest in my articles. I am sorry it took a while for the reply but I wanted to take the time to answer thoughtfully and respectfully. peace and love