I don't judge anybody for his or her look or color or how or where they live etc, as long as this person is honest, and man, I think, you have ashamed me.
I'm not broke, but I have been, although I have always had a work. I have had a safe job since I was 20, but I have spent more than I earned. This was before I met my wife and is long forgotten. I still spend too much, but I can handle it - I have to handle it, because I have a family with 17 years old twins ;)
You have told me some heavy stuff, and it's not easy for me to reply. Of course I feel sorry for you, and I wished I could find the right words.
There's always the risk to lose when you are an artist, but believe me, if I was alone I would have quitt my job many years ago to become a photographer ... I wanted to, but then I have met my wife, stopped photographing when the children arrived (apart from family photos and so) and began to photograph again last year ;)
Then I have found Steemit and now I am a part of a wonderful community with many great people.
I have been really impressed by your beach photos and the waves, but I have already told you that. The detail shots are great too. I have thought, that you must be a very lucky man, living near the beach and being there every day. Now I know better, but somehow I still envy you ;)
Sometimes you are lucky (like me, when I met my wife), and sometimes you make the wrong decision (which I might have made if I had not met my wife), although you think, it is right.
I don't need to know, what went wrong, because it's too late to make changes in the past, but I think, you are on a good way, by being on Steemit, showing us your life. Maybe you get a chance somehow to drive to the mountains or the other places - I would love to see a mountain photo from you one day :)
I do hope for you, that the hectic on the beach will be over soon, that it cools down a bit and that the big waves come, so that we are able to see them on your beautiful photos.
I know, the above will be weird to read, because I just wrote down, what came into my mind, after reading your comment.
You are so right, that it would be easier to talk face to face, and I would honestly prefer to talk that way.
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