How about we try working with the idea that there is NO meaning to life
I rather have headache.
My life should have a meaning,because it's my choice, but sometimes I go to far, trying to find the reason for everything happening around me.
If an earthquake happens in my area, that just part of the play, non of business why that happened, but I have to choose how to react to it, and that's when I search for a reasonable reaction, a meaningful reaction. Though maybe I need to know the reason for that earthquake to know how to react.
I don't know really, I'm still experiencing, trying...
Maybe the earthquake is a reaction and only happens because you have already acted, and the reflux (like after eating a sandwich) is all this questioning. After all: the answer begs the question. There are no questions to which there is no answer, that is the hermetic principle of faith.
Yeah, it could be and that's why I can't chill out with no worries like that cat.
I shouldn't overthink, but my action could result in bad events for myself or others...