Ever left the house and you feel like you are missing something, or have forgotten to do something? You check for your keys and wallet, you think whether you left the stove or iron on but nothing jumps out. Yet, you still can't shake the feeling that you are missing something fundamental. That is how I feel today.
I am missing something I need, a little information or a little advice but, whatever it is, it won't come to mind. It could of course be that I am just annoyed by the morning activities and the posts I have written so far today. In the evening I will try to write something different, something more pleasant perhaps. Maybe I just need to get out of the house or something.
Tomorrow, I am doing something I don't really want to do and said I wouldn't do again which is, shooting a friends wedding pictures. It is a terrible experience in my opinion as the bride has expectations of what they want in their head but no idea as to what they really want or whether it is even achievable. She sent me pictures of 'something likes' to give me an idea of her hopes. Um, yeah, that is a wheat field taken in summer on a sunny day, the other one is with autumn leaves covering the ground and the Eiffel Tower in the background. It is -6 C, everything is covered in snow and it is going to be overcast.
People have expectations of the way things should be and when they aren't met, they get disappointed. Perhaps this is why I feel like I am missing something now. The actions of some people and groups here do get me down even though I have experienced all the behaviours many times before. There is something soul-sucking about Spam comments, there is something that wears at the bones when hypocrisy is highly rewarded. I seem to have expected (hoped) that people would learn to act differently than those we want to be different from. Too much to ask of people.
I can really only do what I do and change what I can change in myself. No matter what I write, how I act, what I wish for or dream of for the future, no one else need ever support it. No matter how hard I work, others can stay frozen in the habits they have learned from the people they do not want to be like. I wonder if people are frustrated by my behaviours and what I say? I think I would be if I were someone else.
I have the tendency to be demanding on people, even when there is nothing in it for me. I tend to push people to support themselves, even when they don't want to. The reason is that I know that if they did push harder, they will question why they didn't act before, invest in themselves earlier.
People worry about the price of Steem, what about the value of who they are and what they offer the world? Are we doing what is required to make the supply of what we each provide worthy of a price increase? Of course, there is not a material cost on being a good husband, father, friend or member of the community, it is much more valuable than anything money can buy. Not many people see it this way though. Maybe it is just the way it is where some people will never understand the value in community nor the costs they may inflict on others.
I want to be successful in what I do, I want to be able to look at what I have done and see the value it has added, watch how it has helped people. I also want to be able to benefit myself, I want to be comfortable sometimes and feel a little bit of security, even if it is just materialistically. I want to offer some space to my daughter to grow without having to depend on others.
I don't expect these results though I work towards, I don't expect help from others although at times I receive it, I don't expect the world to shift to be a better place for us all, even though I know it could be. Well, until I work out what is missing I will keep working for something better than today, even if it will never arrive.
Taraz
[ a Steemit original ]
There are some people here that are underrated in the value they add and the services they provide even though they have very rarely failed and, there are many who are overrated, even though they have rarely proven themselves worthy. When I come across those working toward a better position for us all I am grateful for them, as it gives me hope that maybe they can encourage others to improve also. At the very least, they help me do a little better, aim a little higher and perhaps become a little stronger and when I look in the mirror and see what I have done and what I have become, they will be reflected back. I am thankful for your support.
At times we have to displease our self to make others happy boss. Give it sometime you will get a clearer picture of what you are missing, and what you need to do.
I love the detailed closeups!
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Your photography and article both are awesome.in evening what you will to write i am excite to read .have a nice day.
beauty lies in your perspective........
everywhere......
those are awesome .
Thanks God I am not the only one hhhh Yes I do that every time I go out. I have to check my keys and wallet. After my phone was once stolen I started checking my phone every time again and again.
It is better not to do things that you dont want ot feel bad about. But this a different situation, so I think you can shoot the photos and be positive. Everybody will like them and you will feel better about this topic in the future :)
You can fail many time in the same thing till you become successful. And believe me you wont loose anything. Maybe a bit of stress, but you will get it done. Be positive~
I agree. Having expectations always leads to disappointment. It is when we don't have any expectations that we'll finally say: "it's beyond my expectations". Expectations always stem from a past thought pattern we cultivated and then transfer into the current moment, thus the entire moment, which is in itself undefined, is filled with the attachment to this past outcome. Oir perception of a miracle only arises from Unknowingness, the opposite to expectations, which rely on illusory Knowingness gained from the past. :)
Thank you for the reminder ;)
I recognise the feeling of shooting pictures with expectations, it always makes me so insure and I can not even imagine how that will be on a wedding.. I wish you good luck with that!
But indeed, there are worse things in life! We are going to give some food to the homeless in a few hours! That makes me realize how blessed I am :)
what an amazing place this is! Just amazing. Thanks for giving us the chance to see it....
Sir i think you omitted a letter here
I've tried not to worry about this rather i spend my time working on myself so that i can give back. Thank you for pushing steemians like me through your words and posts to aim better, improve on ourselves for some day i could reflect back and be grateful that i met you in this life.
You would like me as a groom.I would have no expectations about what kind of photos I would like you to shoot at my wedding. I would just ask you to shoot me and my would-be significant other in good taste. I guess I have no expections about things because everytime I have ever had them, they have never been met or they have been met in a way I never wanted or in a way never expected. On the other hand I am certainly not apathetic because I am a theist who belives that humans need to exercize their will for 'life lessons' God wants to give us. I believe I should cultivate some ideas about what I want in life. It'sjust that I know that when you make what you want known to others, you lose control because people have their say on your ideas or requests in ways you never wanted or even imagined. They can even jetison them entirely, That's just the way it is.
Very good post and the thoughts it puts into your head. The value of this life is much more than the money you can generate although it is challenging getting beyond valuing yourself by the money you make. The problem is that it makes life so one dimensional. We must all be conscious of the many other things that have so much more value, like family, friends, love and caring for others. These things are what truly allow us to find happiness in this always challenging life. As we make our way through, we also need to keep in mind how much we need each other or we risk being truly alone no matter how many material things we have.
i like your photography.
The importance of adding value to the lives of others in our workplace, community, home, etc. is something we need to teach our children if we want them to be truly successful. Sadly, I think we've done the opposite. We teach children that they are "deserving" and more "valuable" than their neighbor. And so, they end up in isolation, sucking the life out of their communities.
Like you said, "Maybe it is just the way it is where some people will never understand the value in community nor the costs they may inflict on others." I hope we can change this ... and I think self-examination like what you've done in this post is a great place to start!
Yeah, get that feeling too sometimes when leaving the house. I guess some days are just like that. Good luck on the wedding shoot tomorrow :) I have a few friends who are professional photographers, and they all say the same thing as you about wedding photos.
We can try to change the state of things if they aren't right, we can try to change the world, but really, there's only so much one can do. What matters is the little you do in your corner with the thought of adding value to the world, It may seem like nothing, but it is something.
I always experienced something like this. Like you don't know what is left but, you feel that something has left. It feels so weird. Urghh
I also feel the same in some ways, the value of a person is more important than the orice of Sbd or how much Steem power You have. When i feel i m sad a good walk in park or going in nature is the Best therapy.
I try to have only the basic things on me when I leave the house.
Some days I am annoyed by the air I breathe, but I try to manage.
I don't see a reason why to push people to support each other.
What is a use if you can pull the horse to the river but not being able to make him drink....
When I first started reading this post It made me think of Herman Hesse's Wandering, which I read a long time ago. Its a collection of essays that I would recomend any one read. Not quite along your lines but While it is reflections on Hesse himself we can all relate to what they say.
Wow.....very nice photography, amazing post, thanks for sharing
Wow.....very nice photography