(Old photo, I know)
I tried to make mends with my folks
And only 5 years later it took
For me to gather enough courage to see past
What they've done, but not exactly to forgive
But live peacefully with them until the very end
once I lived on the streets as a young teen my mother and father kicked me out wouldn't acknowledge their own son- I couldn't even be seen
I remember i had to climb trees at night to sleep
And go to the creek for water and scavenge the garbage for something to eat
I thought I hit my rock bottom even though I was fucking only fourteen
Turn this hatred into power
They said but it's hard however
Every which way I turn there's another wall
Upon I try to punch through until my knuckles are raw
Before hand I thought of the possibility of death
And how that'd teach them
But then also thought what good would that do for me? I'll have to keep my momentum
Up and alive because then one day I can show them wrong
Show them my power and how I'm strong
Without them and they didn't help
But I still Managed to make it to the top.
Mamma
You're on my mind and I don't know if you know but I have some shit to clear
I just want to have it where my head is decluttered of the past and have nothing left to fear
To say to you, to have the confirmation everything is okay,
And not seem like the abomination
You once said I am to you in a conformation
In an angry and strong mix of emotion
I loved you once-I'll try again for you to come to fruition
That I'm sorry and I want to start over, and you are too I'm wishing
There's a light at the end of the tunnel they mention
As I continue I see none and it's beyond my comprehension
Only because I feel so close to the ambient
Getting tired of this shit and I'm never getting anywhere and to me that's obvious
I need to find a solution and not always be in denial
Convert my nightmare I seem to be stuck in- into a happy lifestyle....