I totally get that. The world's energy is calibrating. It's a collective energy soup. So we're each causing that and also affected by it.
As you center and ground in your ever-deepening experiencing of the new You emerging, you will sway and swerve in to fuller expression of that.
Plus you're a leader. So that honor carries both your own clearing of your pathway with the sharing of that process so it assists your peeps on how to clear their own too.
Each step in to your newly formulating You/you takes you bigger, wider, vaster. You are Being and doing so well.
Namaste.