Great poem. I always like your poetry. Up voted it. You writing does seem rear view and sad at times but that is NOT a bad thing. It pulls emotion and that is a good thing. I have read a few of your poems that draw a sad emotion as well as happiness. There was one that I read about childhood that I really liked. It pulled out all sorts of emotions. Just know that they are being felt.
the words turn into
blotches that even
Rorschach himself
cannot decipher
That part made me think of something that I am working on right now. I don't write poetry but I am laying something out to be deciphered. Can you read the blog below and tell me what you think? It may not be your thing. Don't be afraid to be critical of me. I enjoy constructive criticism. I usually do more comedy and strange facts but I had to give a hint into the future because many people have been misunderstanding my name. That was the plan from the beginning though. Didn't want to let the secret out yet but I did because some people are taking offense to my name.
Thank you for the thoughtful words @big.ock...I always say if we're not laughing or crying then we're just not living...as a drama/theatre teacher I may be a little dramatic in my writing at times! I'll be sure to check out the link above. Cheers!