The end of your post was funny.....it actually made me laugh! Good job. As for your poem, I know how past loves can come back to haunt you. In a way, it is a way for your mind to release things in spurts, like a pressure cooker where pressure has to be released gradually. Give it time.....eventually the most important thing is not to force yourself to forget but to gradually learn to forgive, so you can more forward. We all have a tendency to live in the past, but hurts really need to be healed by forgiving. I know in time, you'll come to terms with this and grow.
Have a wonderful week ahead! ....... Cabbagepatch