That's exactly what I do. Lol I lie and say I love you and I do it so well I start believing it. The ones who make us feel like we're not enough are the ones we yearn for naturally and its bullshit. They say ignorance is bliss but when youre finally out of the "bliss" and see everything for what it is you wanna puke at how stupid you were for turning the other cheek all the time.
It sucks how much it hurts to trust.