I like how this was written, with the questions and the confusion at the beginning filled with sorrow and regret. Something was lost, or taken from the speaker. Someone damaged her. Halfway through there is a turn where the speaker makes a choice to not be ruled by whatever malady has occurred. A decision to not be dominated by "the event."
I like the power and the encouragement that reverberates through the second half of the poem. I enjoy reading your work! Looking forward to more!