Ah indifferent, that is the word I was looking for in an earlier comment. I will remember it now, I hope.
We are complex as to how we process emotion and especially grief, so if the above can be applied to one of the stages and the result is positive I appreciate that sentiment.
I hope you have worked through your thoughts and feeling with your own situation, and imagine so since I find people do not wish to share if they are still processing everything.
Thank you for sharing this.