An apology List

I apologize for these following things:

I apologize for staring at you with your eyes closed
I could not fathom how out of all
People you could have handpicked
You’re with a trash
Smeared with paint
Out on the gutter
Singing undistinguished phrases
Of lullabies or rock songs
Do you think of me
With every blink or do
You thank the ominous
For bringing you
Rubbish at your footsteps?
I apologize for holding your hands
Too tightly that if
It had procured lungs
It might have suffocated
For i could not comprehend
How they have staggered me
Up the bed after a blackened
Out mind
Or how it puts me to rest
As you rest it on my face
Mostly left cheek
But do you tire?
I apologize for shutting the doors and
Forgetting where I left the keys
Because I did it on purpose
And now I lost them
I’m not keeping you out
I’m locking myself in
To save such exquisite art
From undisciplined hands
For human touch distorts
Masterpieces
I am sorry
I apologize for making this list because
The things I am sorry for
Would make this unbearable to read
Or listen to
But i still did
Making it shorter and putting
Things i’d actually apologize for
Believe me, this could
Go longer
But i’d like to have longer days
With you
And for that I won’t
Apologize.

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There are moments in our lives where others would make us feel like we need to apologize for how we feel. Although there are things we want to apologize for, we truly don't have to please others. I wrote this piece with no one in mind, I placed myself in the shoes of a friend whose parents don't approve of her significant other due to a family feud. It's a modern day Romeo and Juliet, and I wasn't a very big fan of Romeo and Juliet. People are making it hard for them for falling in love, for wanting to stay with each other. I definitely think it's ridiculous. She can apologize for hiding it from her parents, apologize for staying out late with him, but I can't find any reason why she should apologize for being with him.

Life's hard.

All the love
xx