I have never suffered from true, debilitating depression. But I wanted to explore my feelings of what it is like to be truly clinically depressed. I can't do it justice because I haven't lived it, but I hope I came close.
I’m weighed down by my misery
I wear this heavy blanket
If the grim reaper came for me today
I’d thank him
I could make a million dollars
I could lose every penny
It makes no difference
How much, how long or how many
It doesn’t matter the time
The day, the month, the season
I couldn’t tell you why
There’s no rhyme nor reason
I’m alive in name only
Just going through the motions
While I am sinking to the bottom
Of the deepest darkest ocean
I could stay here in bed all day
If I didn’t need the money
Earning a living for a life that I don’t want
Ain’t that funny?
People say to keep your chin up
And put on a painted smile
I lash out at them why don’t you
Try feeling this way for a while
I know you want the best for me
You’re just trying to lend a hand
But I can’t pretend for you
Don’t you understand?
It might help to relieve your guilt
Free you from your obligation
But for now, won’t you please
Just try to be patient
It’s not like I made the choice
To be followed by this cloud
My voice is a mere whisper
And my head is bowed
Please give me time and space
I’m sure I’ll be alright
But it sure doesn’t feel that way
Tonight
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My name is Scott. I write poetry and other stuff. I'd love it if you followed me.
I feel ya bro, keep your head up! Also, when dwelling in the dimension of mind try to stay present, for in the past lay regret, and in the future is desire. Both of these feelings are like storm clouds. We cannot undo yesterday, and we cannot have tomorrow, not yet. Our best shot is to focus on today, and do the best that we can in the eternal moment called now. Excellent poem you have here!
Thank you! :)
Nice work!! Feels great to recite it😊😊
Thank you very much. :)
@echowhale swimming by with your upvote . As well as a loyalty one from @journeyoflife
Stellar!
Thanks man!
Wow!I have goosebumps!Amazing poem👏👏👏
Thank you. :)
It is amazing that a poem can come to mind, but have no logical reason to the one writing it. But someone out there feels that way, am sure. Thank you for the sharing :-)
You're welcome. I'm glad you stopped by. :)