Hushed by the feeling of fear,
It creeps from the darkest corners of my mind,
Demanding control,
Commanding authority.
Spreading…
like an unrelenting virus,
A disease that claims,
creating a chaos within.
The clock ticks as time is lost,
What news will the day usher in?
As the world charges around me,
I remain idle…silent…trapped.
My mind topsy-turvy,
The weight of fear wrapped around my ankles,
Drags me swiftly to the ocean’s floor,
suffocated by the thought, “I may lose her.”
A flicker of light catches my eye on the waters surface,
A reflection of memories,
A reminder that life is precious,
As I beg to reverse the fleeting sands of time.
Like the waves of the tides,
I contest the suffocating grasp of fear’s cold fingers,
Fracturing the surface,
Claiming the pure air that now fills my lungs.
For her sake and mine,
I will find fortitude and claim hope,
For hope is the light that guides us in the darkness,
And allows us to believe anything is possible.
As many of you know I have been awaiting some news on my grandmother's diagnosis and at this point they don't want to speculate what kind of cancer. Until she sees the oncologist this week for more testing we will not know how advanced (staging) or what kind. I spoke to her a few days ago and she was in good spirits. As always I'd like to thank you for reading my work. Please keep my grandmother in your thoughts!
Your Travel Nurse
"Nursey"
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We love you nurse, and we are listening. <3
Thanks sammo! You guys are great listeners and supporters!!!!
"For hope is the light that guides us in the darkness..." How beautiful! My thoughts are with your grandma. I'll love to know how the tests go. All the best.
Thank you misterakpan! I will definitely let you know. Pathology from lymph nodes showed cancerous cells and she had those lymph nodes removed. Now it's just figuring out what kind of cancer and how progressed. I appreciate your thoughts and support!
Anxiety and depression are real and socio-economic forces are not complimentary to this situation. However as you have clearly stated it is all about hope , to get out of bed , to believe (whether spiritual or your own personal belief). We don't know what will happen, we know what has happened but in the present we can make things happen.
Very beautiful reply @stickchumpion. All we can do is hope and be strong as a family! Good thing I'm one of 9 and there of lots of us to provide support!
No worries shabba
I'm so sorry, Nurse. <3
This was beautiful and heart wrenching and moving. Thank you for sharing this with us.
Love you, darling, and if you need anything, you know I am right here.
Stitchy, I definitely know you are there for me and I appreciate you as you have been there since the beginning. When I held it inside and wasn't quite sure what was happening, you were there to calm my soul! Love you too <3!
You depict here the struggle we all share during such times. Hope is all we really have to cling to. It is the light that guides us through such dark thoughts.
I'm glad you finished this the way you did. It shows inner strength. You, your grandmother and your family are in my thoughts. <3
Being on Steemit and discord has improved me as a person. One thing I struggle with is loss and the sadness/fear that accompanies it. You guys have taught me to have faith, to hope, and to overcome... Much love to my peeps!
I hope it's not too serious and treatable. I'm sending you good vibes.
I am hoping for the same good sir! Good vibes needed and appreciated.
This has been chosen as an exceptionally creative post by the audience at @msp-waves, stay creative! we love you, we really do. <3
Awe you guys! Much love! Can't believe I missed it <3
beautiful
Thanks for coming by to read Artsy! I appreciate your support and kindness.
This is an incredible post. So well written...the art and videos helps tell the story in a tangible way. Truly powerful!! Thank you for posting!!! I will keep your grandmother in my thoughts.
Thanks @wipgirl! I questioned whether I should put the photos in as I went along. Some would prefer to just read the poem itself and envision it. I appreciate your love and thoughts!
nice poem dear....
Thank you <3!
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This is a beautiful piece and I feel like it does captivate the kind of hold fear can have on a person. I especially liked that personified the darkness, it helps me to get a grasp on how you must feel.
I wish you and your family the best. Take care and stay strong <3
Thank you for such a thoughtful reply. I am happy to have a Steemit community and family that supports me. One that can pull me from the darkness and encourages me to see the light of hope! I appreciate you reading and for the best wishes you extended to myself and my family. 🌹
@travelnurse keep going and make waves, the Steemit community is wonderful and kind. The people here can really pull anyone from the darkness c: cheers love
@shello
This I absolutely know and believe <3 <3 <3!!!!
thanx for this post its really helpfull for me
I'm glad it was helpful! <3
:) nice one come to my blog today i post my intro post you must like it if you have time then
So what was nice about it? How was it helpful? Because it's actually a very sad and tragic post and it's clear you didn't read it, but only came here to beg for votes. :( Not good. Not good at all.
I wish your grandma and yourself too all the best.
Thank you @jb-design. I appreciate you taking the time to read and your kind wishes for my grandmother and myself.
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Nursey sharing that really real. I hope she gets good news.
Thank you sir! We are all really hoping we get some good news. She's one tough lady thats for sure. Lots of spirit and big ❤️️!
Nice post. Thanks for sharing your thought with us. Upvoted. Praying for your grandma!
Thank you very much. I appreciate you taking the time to read and keeping my grandmother in your thoughts and prayers.
You're welcome.
Love it !
Anxiety is perhaps the worst emotion of all, because ultimately, it is a manifestation of the simple fact that we cannot predict the future. I wish you and your grandma the best.
Indeed! The worst part is waiting and knowing you can't do a thing but hope for the best.
This is lovely. <3
Thanks Sammo! I also appreciate you being there along with Stitchy from the start of things. You are a force of positivity and everyone needs that in their life!
Wonderful! Amazing and loving it!
Thank you snek! You are an amazing person and I appreciate you with all my ❤️️!
Lovely, sad piece of work Nursey. I like the pictures they add to your words.
Steem on babe x
Thank you sir! I felt the pictures would explain the emotions involved. A visual for the description of my thoughts and feelings...all the feels.
I love this!
Thanks for taking the time to read as I share my feelings of despair and fear overcome by the light of hope! Much love Isaria! <3
You're welcome! I understand despair and fear all to well.
Looking for the light of hope.....
Hi, my friend, I enjoyed this one very much!
Congratulations @travelnurse!
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Pretty cool! Thanks for the acknowledgement!
this is a poem, so it would be better if you don't add this many pictures in the middle. may be try adding them at the beginning or at the end. better add them at the end. that would be easy for the readers to read your poetry
The photos go with the thoughts. Sorry it made it difficult to read. Thanks for reading!
:)
You are more patient than me, travelnurse, with "advisors" who are lower reputation than you and who don't seem concerned at all about the content of your post, but only in hearing their own voices. :(
Patience is a virtue! Thanks to MSP Waves- Minnow School I've been reminded that we must remain patient...especially when it is hard to do so. So thank you @SirCork !!<3
What comes around, goes around. Thanks for the gentle reminder of my own message, which totally applies here, my dear. Nice bed side manner! <3
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Nice comment ,follow me? ;)
Since you're asking so nicely, I will follow you 🤣
Lol I <3 you guys!! Hugs
We love you too babe!
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Thank you sir for the resteem!