@ectodoobie , sound like you need a little dose of Truth and Spirit. Look in The Book. Think about this: If God wrote a book, what would it be? Probably the best selling book of all time right?:.. The Bible Is Just That. If God had a son, who would He be? Probably the most famous Man to ever walk the face of the earth, right? Yeshua Is Just That Man. You have woken to the Truth, but now you need to help reconcile with Spirit. Only one way to deal with this tyranny my sister...and Jesus/Yeshua is His name. God Bless. Seriously, next time you have a problem that seems unrelentless, and unresolving, do a google search with your problem, followed by the words "Bible Verse." Click on "Images," and see what comes up. I think you will be surprised at what ya find🙌😎 ☺️