I'm sorry @jaynie...
It may not be exactly "motivational," but a very long time ago Socrates observed that "Death may be the greatest of all human blessings."
I read your words with a slightly sad sense of... "yeah, I know..." because it seems we're tuned into the same Universal Channel; a friend with a terminal illness took her own life (legally) yesterday and today I was part of an intervention into a different friend's heroin addiction.
The world feels a little like it is ripping at the seams, at the moment... wish I could offer something more positive.
Hugs from afar...
xo