You are a mindful person my dear Erika :) It is precisely this acceptance and awareness that you adopt in difficult times that most of us seem to either not know about; or, not know how to proceed with it.
It took me a long time to understand that, and a fair bit of emotional pain before I realized that I would need to exhaust myself physically first, before the answer to the question "Is it really that bad?" becomes a more hopeful one! I suppose that dopamine helps me with that!
Much love to you :*