knowing they're irrational still doesn't alleviate the twisting in my gut
Because despite being unfounded they are real to you. It is this sort of 'symptom' that leads some people to being house bound. For example, the person goes outside, their gut twists, the heart begins to race and so forth. Then, they come back home where they feel safe and the symptoms go away.Next thing a sort of social phobia sets in. Women are more suceptible to this.
When Natan is feeling a bit more confident about himself I am going to get him on a dating website ;)